Confessions

After reading a friend’s latest post, I finally feel comfortable doing what I intended to do with this blog to begin with. BE HONEST! (hence why I named it Honestly) I feel like the reason I’ve stopped and started blogging so many times is I felt I couldn’t be honest in fear of offending someone, or them not liking me. But if you guys don’t really know me at all, how can you make an accurate judgment of whether you like me or not.  So below are things you might or might not know about me. These are all things that my husband, family and friends know about me (well for the most part), and they still love me, hopefully you will too!

* First of all, I curse like a sailor! Seriously ya’ll. I have a potty mouth. BUT, I know when it’s appropriate and when it’s not.

* I like to drink. I don’t get to do it very often, but when I do I’m a mess. Fun, loving, silly, but a mess! My drink of choice, either Whiskey Sours or shots of tequila or both

* My life is by no means perfect or a fairy tale. My husband and I fight and sometimes it gets ugly (mostly on my part). But I know no matter what, we’ll always be together. He’s my rock, my sanity, my partner in crime.  I often to use these 2 quotes to describe us:

“They didn’t agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday…But in spite of their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.”
-The Notebook

“Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.”
-The Notebook

*I have a temper and sometimes I get all crazy white bitch. It’s something I’m working on. And I’ve actually gotten quite better at it.

* I miss my Mom like crazy, along with the rest of my family that lives far away. But I also kind of resent them for leaving me behind. Especially my Mom. Within a year I lost my Dad and my Mom. He died, she left and I felt completely abandoned. And now she’s remarried and I never get to see her because I can’t stand her husband and she knows it. I’m not rude to him. I’m quite nice actually. But I just don’t like him and don’t wanna be around him unless I have to be, which sucks cause it’s hurting my relationship with my Mom.

* I love Allen. He’s such a good kid. But I’m not gonna lie and say I love him just like my own. I take care of him and treat him just like he’s my own. But he’s not. And though I would never tell my husband this, sometimes I wonder what our life would be, where we would be, if Chuck didn’t have him. Sometimes I just feel held back. Mainly because if it wasn’t for Allen, Chuck and I would probably be living in Houston w/ the rest of my fam.

*I have a long row to hoe before I get done with school. Mistakes in my past (namely almost 3 semesters of never going to class) have come back to bite me in the ass. But I’m gonna do it! No matter how long it takes me I’m gonna hold that degree in my hand and feel the accomplishment I’ve been wanting to feel for so long.

Well guess that’s enough confessions for today. Besides Grey’s Anatomy is getting ready to come on!